Words

So here I am
Just surviving on words,
Trying to fill my lungs
And feed my hunger
With letters arbitrarily
Thrown together.
And I can't be certain
About their substance
Or confident
About their truths.
But I breathe them in
And chew them over
Hoping they'll somehow become
More than just
Letters wrapped around my tongue
Or lingering in my ears,
More than just
Symbols streaming from my pen
Or dripping from your lips.
Because many days have I found myself
Spitting out phrases that don't suit my taste,
Exhaling written pages that strangle and suffocate,
Because my comfort in words
Leads me to blindly believe
In all that they have to say.
And though they've failed me time and again,
Both in their absence
And in their lack of content,
I cannot help
But let them fill me up
And breathe new life into me,
Thinking maybe this time
They'll lead to thriving
And 'just surviving'
On words
Will be the story of my past.

Overtaken

I find myself
Tripping on phrases
Because you've overtaken
Those tiny spaces
In between my rational thoughts.
Sliding through
The pathways of my mind
Coating all of my
Reason and Logic
In the Sweet Elixir
Your words leave behind.

And I'm glossed over
By your enticing and
SmoothlySweetSyrup
Dripping its way down,
Oozing and seeping
Its way through my being.
My joints oiled well
But only in the manner
YOU desire.

Only to find myself
Melting
Into a puddle,
A pool,
A
smooth,silky,swirling,swooning,saturated,sidetracked
state of
simple....

Surrender.

So my tongue gets twisted
To where it no longer
Tells of
Perfectly Planned Prospects and Proposals
But instead
Spontaneously Sings of the
Sweet Secrets
Spinning and
Spiraling
Through those tiny spaces.
All because I find you've overtaken

all. of. me.

My Destiny

It's dreams of you
That keep me whole
And help me see this through.
You belong to me
And me alone.
Those secret wishes no one else can see.
I hold you deep down in my soul
Even though I'm still waiting for you
To fill me up,
Wondering what you'll make me.
Because I've been wandering for so long
With nothing but
Thoughts of you
To keep me moving.
Be my voice
And speak those words I don't yet know.
Be my feet
And take me to the places I need to go.
Because I'm running to find you
To find those answers about me.

What I See

There is a side of you
That very few know.

I wish you would not hide it away from the world.

For it is that side of you
That makes you worth knowing.

It's a shame you worry so about it showing.

Submerge Yourself

It's ok.
Put your toe in the water.
I promise not to splash.
I won't let the tide roll in
And drag you under.
Just ease yourself in
And believe in your steps.
I'm your adventure
Calling your name
The one you've been staring at
From your safe ground.
I'm ready for you
To jump right in,
But I know that's not your style.
So find your reasons
And discard your doubts
And step into the waters of your life.
The waters that are full of things
You've only dreamt of,
Full of parts of yourself
You've not met yet.
I'll hold them here forever
Until you're ready
To take the plunge.
But yes,
Someday you must be ready
And one day you must let
The waves of life take you for a ride,
Lest you find yourself
Standing alone on the shore,
Sure-footed on your safe ground
But forever wondering
What might have been
If only you'd had the courage
To dive deep into this life.

Time

She pulled back the film
That coated my eyes,
That helped me to
Gloss over your truths
And helped me
Color you beautiful.
She's brought me to a place
Where street signs are spelled out
And I need not try to decide
Which of your contradicting arrows to follow.
Yes, Time held my hand
And pulled me along.
She stood me on my own two feet
And gave me air to breathe.
She slowed my racing heart
And picked up my pieces that had crumbled in your absence.
And though I grow impatient with her
And doubt her in my darkest days
I'm starting to trust her consistency
And believe in where she'll take me.

Of You

There are places I should go
But my feet are cemented in my mind
Firmly planted in thoughts
Of you.
There are things I should do
But find everything
Just motions I go through
While my heart is a world away, dreaming
Of you.
Perspective on importance has become
Tilted and shifted,
Smart decisions in the eye of the beholder
More so than ever
When every decision is made with thoughts
Of you.
And I'm wondering
If you knew these thoughts of you
What might you do,
But every possible outcome
Still leads me to hopes
Of you.
So, Open yourself to me
And my
Cemented feet
And my
Dreaming heart
To my
Shifted perspective
And my
Unwavering hopes
And let them sing
Into your heart
The beauty of my thoughts
Of you.