Worth My While

If only I knew then...

All those moments
When my heart ached for the unknown,
Worrying there may never
Be an answer to the
Questions of my soul;
Pushing my way through doors
That should've remained unopened,
Fighting battles
I'd lost before even beginning.
And all the while,
My heart,
The one to deal with the aftermath.
Time after time,
Finding her way
Back to her feet,
Stumbling and scarred,
But hopeful
Somehow
Against the odds.

And perhaps,
All this time
It was merely my head
So confused about what lay ahead.
Because while my heart
Would fall and break,
Ache and attempt to heal,
Somehow,
She knew there'd be You.
The answer I needed
To questions I'd never even think to ask.
You.
Making that journey,
Missteps and wounds included,
Worth my while.

Because without my bitter past,
This present could never taste so sweet.